a month gone by.....

Its been a month since I have blogged. Makes me sad :(. Ive had a little bit of writers block and lack of internet. In 4 weeks or sooner Ill be having baby #3. Im nervous and excited and not completely ready. Physically Im ready for her to be here and to have my body back due to the aches and pains but I havent nested this go around so there for my house isnt ready. Ive been more focused on spending time with my husband and two older babies and family. My floors need shampooed and my house organized, baby clothes need to be washed and bottles sterilized. Ugh..where to find the time. Hopefully this weekend will bring some productiveness. Oh how I wish I had internet at home. Ive been spending alot of time with my parents and lil bro which has been nice since I went years without seeing them due to a past relationship. Im hoping these next few weeks go by well and that anything that needs to be done gets done. Im also hoping that anything that needs to be said gets said before the baby gets here that way there is less stress and drama. Not that theres ever a right time for that Id rather just handle it before she gets here.

Ive been stressed and very insecure this past month and it sucks. Im afraid that after having my third child that my body will never be close to what it was. Im afraid that after weight loss Im going to be nothing but sagging skin due to all the stretched skin everywhere ( breast, stomach, hips, butt, thighs). Thankfully I didn't get any new stretch marks to add to that. I do have a wonderful husband who tells me that im beautiful all the time. This is his first child so I hope he thinks so after the pregnancy aftermath. He didn't have much to say after I told him about the 6 week waiting period after delivery. He's learning fast though and Im so proud of him. I hope that I will be able to update again and have photos to share soon. Until next time. God Bless :)